My Fear and Love for You
(I Feel You Fade Away)

Within the dark pages of my heart, I fear for you.
Your life is not mine, I cannot experience it for you,
however much I may want to try.
I can't see the scars, you've hidden them from me.
But I know that they are there; I can see them in your eyes.
They keep you from trusting me.
I can try to help you, save you, but you do not seem to recognize that you need either. Perhaps I am wrong,
but I can feel the pain in your eyes; it tears me apart.
And still you keep yourself from me.
Why will you not let me in?
I had my own fears, you told me to trust you, to let you show me a whole new world.
I took your hand, and you did.
And the stars shined that night, and I found that I could not hate the dark.
But still you kept the pain to yourself, and in doing so, pain was brought unto me, for I could not share my mind with you if you would not do the same.
And so I cried, I begged you to tell me once more,
and still you would not.
And so I sit here, cold and alone in the dark,
and cannot help but think of all that is, was, and never will be.
So much we shared - but even more we kept from each other, so much we both feared to say.
And now, as a result,
I cannot see you anymore, you've faded away back to your home in the night,
to the place I am once more afraid to go,
without you.
And even if I did brave the dark, searched you out,
I know that still you would turn away from me, force me away and turn your back on me.
Do not think you are unworthy of me, don't give yourself another reason to cause yourself pain.
I am not the cause of your pain, though being around me likely brings it to the surface.
Everything in common, nothing alike are we; I said that once before.
But our fear and our pain unites us, and only if we surrender to it are we truly lost.
I'm calling your name, watching you bleed.
The world collapses, I'm kneeling at your feet,
praying, begging, waiting for you to let me in.
And then you fade away.